I hate weekends!!!!!!!!!
In the past i always look forward to it cause i get to be with her.
But now weekends is just dreadful, i hate it.
I am left all alone!!

Life is cruel!!
Is there a way to erase memories?
Actually sometime i picture her with another guy already.
I really cant imagine if there a day i actually saw her with another person.
Actually i should be happy that she could find be happy.
But i really still do miss her.
Oh God help me Help me pls........

What the true way to live a life?
I really forgot about how to live and to go through the agony everyday.
Right now my life is all about work n work.
But that how life should be anyway.
I really miss her as my soulmate.
Nxt week is her birthday, seriously i really hope i could at least wish her a happy birthday.
Hemm n really worried bout Miss Y.
Hope she will be okay and strong in carrying on her life..
I believe she can do it de cause she is a very strong gal..

Me haha is just a robot program to work n work that all.
Gradually i am losing my sense to feel already...
I really need someone by my side and i really hope it her.
Saw a drama recently even after yrs being apart fate brought them back again but it just a show anyway.
I dont believe it will happen to me.. i am nt that lucky

I had tried many times to move on and forget bout U.
My guess is u might already had long forgotten bout the times n past we had been through together.
Nothing can change the fact that u had already left me.
I know at times u read my blog and thought i had move on.

I myself thought i could move on but i dont understand why.
Everytimes i tried i failed also, maybe is the thought of u left me make me feel very insecure.
Maybe deep in me u nvr left me, or should i say i still cant accept the fact that u had already left me.
After u left i tried 2 R/s but all end very shortly.
Maybe it is me that still can untie the knob in my heart.

But what i can say is i really had put my heart into every R/s that i had tried.
And i love everyone of them but it a fact that i had never stop loving u or forget bout u too.
Ultimately what i can say now is that i still love U.

If i can turn back the hands of times i will never had let u slip away from u.
The time when u left me u said cause i am not attentive enough to u and that u feel insecure cause i dont hold a stable job.
At times it is not that i dont wanna work in the past.
It is just that i cant find a job that i feel is suitable for me and another part of it is that i am never lack of money so it lead me to think job is not important to me at all.
Cause whenever i am out of cash all i need to do was just ask.

From the time u left me it really wake me up.
No gal want to be with a guy that cant give her security n assurance of a good or decent life.
After 2 years u had left me nothing had really change.
The only thing that had change is that i have a decent job and is earning a very steady and decent amount.
But does it matter anymore No.
Nothing matter now cause your no longer with me anymore.

I know U try every means now to block me out from your life.
I know i could easily get your number but i dont want to do that.
I know i could always go to your house but i know u too well, u will only avoid going home or act not at home.
I dont want to bother your family also and let myself be a nusiance to U.

U know the diamond earring that i had gave u is the vouch on how true my love is for u.
My love for u last like the diamonds.
Now i only hope when u wear those earring it will still bring back the memories of Me to U.

After the last so call R/S i had i can say that after U n her.
I dont think i will seriously love anyone anymore.
Cause i finally understand the fact is to be love is better to love someone.

By the way how is U and how is jethro?
If not wrong by 4th of Oct he should be 5 yrs old already.
I wish and pray that U n jethro will live without worries and always be happy.

And Miss Y, it true that i had really love U but it did not when well.
My wishes to U, always stay happy and think postive.
And wish U n ur family be always in good health :)

This might be my very last entry.
I am really had think alots these few days.
I am really stressful now, i dont know how much longer i can hang on.........

Work had been hetic but at least it is meaningful and the tiredness sometime let me stop thinking of all my worries

Memories are always left deep in my heart.
I will never forget those memories that u had left me before.
I still love U.
My love for U will never be replace.
I might love again but the fact is ur still irreplacable.
Human minds do change dear but mine love for u had never change.
I know it too late already and U had move on but I just cant simply forget the love U had once gave me n the times spent together.
I love U

Working life had been hetic and meaningless but for the sake of money, i will endure.
I do really hope i can turn back the hands of time.
I won't let u slip away from my life like i did before.

Yeah
That what u always say:
"If you want to think that way, i cant stop you also"

Precisely that is what i hate.
Will you treat me that way in the past?
Whatever le lor, if u wan carry on treat me that way .
I will just accept it gracefully!!

Your tired of all this crap and frankly speaking i am tired of all this too.
If you wan me to leave u alone n have peace.
Please do speak up and tell me.

Thanks for the past for bringing me laughter and you really brighten up my gloomy days.

Thank You darling :)

Everytime the sun goes down, my mood follows.
Darling stop tormenting me!!!
I need you i love U